DESTROY WHAT DESTROYS YOU!

In the past, I've had a problem with having awesome sketches in my sketch book and only OK finishes. I've tried just blowing up sketches with little success, and this time I decided to try something else: Just draw a finish in my sketch book and ink it at home. It worked perfectly! I had a great sketch that was done to size, I scanned it into my computer and blew it up a little bit, and basically inked it on a lightbox. 

Also, the reason I haven't posted a lot of sketches as of late is because I noticed a lot of keyword activity on a piece that, sadly, I haven't finished in nearly a year. I decided to stop posting until it was done... it isn't, but I decided instead to not post sketches unless a piece is done or almost done.

New Sketch Book

I got and started a new sketch book recently. Last weekend I went to New York City. In fact, it was last Sunday. I had work the next day and left for NYC at around 4:30PM. I had to get back soon, so I was only there for about 2 hours and it's a 4-hour round-trip. It was 100% worth it to just get out of Philly.

I can't say I've gone through much, but really I have. Some good, some bad, and some... well, REALLY good. These sketches don't say much, but they're pretty good.

FUCK! Or Me On a Bad Day...

So I now have a bet (in a way) going with half my friends that I may suffer from Bi-Polar Disorder. Whenever my friends talked about it, I always said their diagnosis by whatever quack they saw was bunk. In essence, Bi-Polar Disorder basically says that people go through lows and his at a big speed. Like I said, life. I think they call it "bi-polar" if you get really bad about it, and really, that's what it seems like. Because I tend to have severe mood swings, dissociative episodes (basically these can be anything from doing something and forgetting it to almost sleepwalking), and did I mention extreme mood swings? That's the important part for me because it's a problem.

So Thursday things got beyond a part where I could just take it anymore. Having a girl I really liked, and who felt the same, having to give me the "lets be friends" talk.. fun, fun stuff (If you read this, don't worry, I actually handled that insanely well! I was bummed, but hey, we're still friends! :) ). And maybe losing my house? Cherry on top!

My response?


Also, looking for a model right now that I can get to pose naked except for being wrapped in Caution Tape. My, ahem, "previous model" said she may not be able to do it anytime soon. Here's what I have so far:



If you click on the sort of "nicer sketch" of this (that isn't even close to a finish! I did it on the train basically to see if I had an idea I liked), you'll see a bunch of notes about what I think works and what doesn't. A pretty interesting peak into the twisted mind of Larry.

My Favorite Punk Chick and My Inner Demons...

One thing I've been working on since the summer of 2007 was an idea for a book. That's all I'll say because, really, I don't want to jinx myself or shoot myself in the foot down the road, so I'll leave it at that. But this is the idea of the main character that I've been developing. I've had the look down since Day 1, but drawing her over and over again and looking the same... well, I've never been good at that.


Also, stress. I have a ton of it. If it isn't one thing, it's another. Not really fun to deal with, either. If you ever saw some of my "ink-paintings", you'll recognize the style quickly. If not, well, this is another style of art I do that's 90% expression, 10% technique, ability, and form. The main idea is to just not be angry or stressed anymore.